Ughnn.. 30 calorie recipe included!

I've been feeling really shit for the past week or so, hence the delayed updates. I've been gorging myself practically every day! D: I'm gonna get back on track with a liquid fast and a couple laxatives tomorrow to get the excess backed-up food out of me, not had a real bowel movement in over 4 days which is weird considering how much I've eaten..

Made an experimental but really delish and filling salad today. 1/2 a cucumber, 1/8-1/4 of a carrot, 1 and 1/2 apples and 3 large stalks of celery, all chopped up into very small pieces and mixed in a tub, makes about a litre of salad, and its only 120 calories for the whole litre! but who's gonna eat that much huh? lasts about 4 days, about 20-30 calories a serving depending how big you have it, and just a few tablespoons will fill you up cos you have to chew like mad. It tastes really good because the apple has the strongest flavour, making the rest of it quite sweet with very little cost calorie-wise! Try it, you'll love it!

 I'll start a recipes page and add this :) feel free to email me any suggestions!  Lozziirawrr@hotmail.co.uk <-- I'll always answer, just drop me an email! <3

Gonna weigh myself in the morning, I've been putting it off for a while.. but my blazer for school has gotten humongous on me over the weekend, so I dunno...

These photos of me were all taken within the last 3 days.

The basic belly shot I showed you all a few days ago, why not! I can see the difference, but it's not good enough yet.

Thighs and thigh gap, hitched my skirt up further in the next photo

Please excuse the ugly birthmark!

So much fat on my arms its unbelievable...

Can tough my fingers around my thigh above my knee! Trying to be able to do this further up but it's proving very hard...

Taken on monday when I was ill with the flu <3 hello kitty

Can kinda see my ribs in this which I really like because my webcam is shite!

Collarbones...

And again..

Ribs!

Too much fat on my stomach..

Me and all my fatty glory...

Thinspo Time!

Yes I know, its failice, but you have to admit she's pretty damn amazing body wise, even if her personality is probably as bad as hitler...

Update! Photos Included

I've been really ill lately so I've been eating quite a lot... but I'm down to 57.5 kilos!

This is from my last update...

And this is me now!

You can't really tell because the lighting and my webcam are crap, but I have well defined hip bones now, and 3 well defined ribs each side. When I get a better camera I will post a better quality photo!

Big reveal.

I'm feeling very open, so I'm going to show you all the image that gave me the kcik over the edge I needed to dramatically cut my eating. This was taken just less than 2 years ago.

Its really low quality, but you can see the horrid fat rolls and bingo wings. Its just dreadful that I could treatmy body that way and get to that point.. All I've had to eat today is a bowl of spaghetti bolognaise than Danny's mum made me, and 5 soothers. that tots to about 650 calories, and its a sunday, so SGD day 7.

Day 2 of Skinny Girl Diet

Okay so like I said, today's limit is 300 calories. Well, I fucked it. Quite literally.
It was mine and Danny's 5 months yesterday and since we couldn't do anything yesterday, I cooked. Spag bol, low calorie, with sausages chopped into it. I didn't over do it, but it still whacked out my total. Then I had an ice cream with him. But the food led to sexy times (Sorry for the TMI) so that probably burned quite a bit, but sadly MFP doesn't have an option for that. So, going off my total from MFP:

Intake for day 2:
684/300

Net for day 2:
290/300

Since the rules say extra calories must be exercised off, I think I did okay. Tomorrows total is 400, so wish me luck with that!

Good luck on your own diets too! <3

I'm Doing The Skinny Girl Diet!

Okay so today was day one of the skinny girl diet for me. I heard it goes off your net calories, but I'm going to do intake AND net seperately just so I can see.

Intake results for day one: 320/400.

Net results for day one: -312/400

Not bad I suppose! Tomorrows target is 300, so I'm going to cut out this morning's sneaky nutella sandwich! Apple for breakfast, 3 celery stalks for dinner, handful of baby carrots for tea!

Getting back on track.

Okay so the past few days have been really hard on me, I just helped one of my friends through an abortion, even though I'm dead against it. But I can't judge her, she honestly had no other choice, if anyone had found out she'd have got kicked out of her home and school.. I see where she was coming from.
But 2 years ago this month I lost my own baby before I even knew about him/her. I only found out when I'd been to the doctors for prolonged periods.

BUT! I'm back on track now, after 4 days of 1500 intakes and 500-600 nets, I'm down to my usual of a 300 intake and a negative net. Happy Lozzii! And to make things even better, look at what MyFitnessPal told me!

READ IT AND WEEP NIKKII YOU WERE RIGHT. God I hope you were right... thats a 2kg a week loss, which is 4.4lb, which is like just over a pound every 2 days! Whoop!

I'm fasting tomorrow, I think. Or I might just eat celery for the day... not sure yet.

Crappy weekend.

Ughh. Every day this weekend I ate over 1000 calories. THAT IS DISGUSTING. Although I managed to get my nets down to below 600, its still too much. I ate so many fatty foods, and broke two fasts after 20+ hours each. God. Fasting again now, that started at 7pm tonight GMT, so I'm now almost 3 hours in. I'm not going to eat anything solid tomorrow, just soup, juice and water. Wish me luck! I'm gonna need it...<3

I feel gross.

I fasted for 21 hours, then Danny's mum made me some tea. I lost all my control and ate 800 and something calories in the space of 2 hours. WHAT IS LIFE. Also been having constipation issues, so I took two senna tablets and drank a strong cup of coffee about an hour ago, so I should be able to 'go' by morning. I did hardly any walking today and feel disgusting. Thank god I'm going shopping tomorrow, non stop walking for a few hours! Yay :)

Going to start getting up earlier for school so I can go for a run in the mornings round the block twice. It takes me 15-20 minutes to walk it and I walk pretty quick, so running it twice should take me 20-30 minutes. We'll see how it goes.

Considering my current failures I doubt I can call myself Ana particularly... I'd say I'm more Edna... but since  on binge days my intake stays below 900, and on normal days below 400 I suppose I am more Ana than Edna...

Love you all!
Stay Strong
Think Thin
Be Beautiful x

Wow...

I've been so scared of the scale lately considering my part-binges over the past few weeks, but I've lost nearly 2 kilos! That's 4 lb! I'm happy now! Fasting for today, and for some reason my dad bought me a pasty and a pie while he was out... damn parent. I didn't open them or smell them so I had the self control not to eat them. There is also a cadbury's flake next to me which I don't even want, yay me!

Thought I'd binged!

Okay so today I did fine till I got to Daniels, then I had chocolate cake. I'm restricted to 500 calories a day max, and anything more than that is a binge for me. Yes I know that's quite high, but my carrots and fruits are actually quite caloric because of the things my dad gets for me. It's a pain, but I have to live with it. I can burn 500 in a school day pretty easy, and even easier at a weekend.
So anyway, I got to Danny's and he gave me chocolate cake. Swiss roll to be precise. I had some, because I'd had a rough day, so much stress. I just gave in without thinking. I also had 2 fruit pastels as well.
I got home about 20 mins ago and totted up my intake on MyFitnessPal (Click to see today's diary) and I only took in 486 calories! My net is well in the negatives, so I may indulge myself in an OXO brew later... that will take me to 501, but what's 1 Calorie going to do if I've burned more than I took in?
Anyway, have some thinspo!

Stay Strong

Think Thin

Be Beautiful x

Horrible day went better after calorie count!

Okay so I did pretty well up until after school on just carrot and celery, when I got home, in the space of 45 minutes I had eaten half a pack of pork and egg roll, a biscuit wafer, 6 marshmallows and a chicken chow mein. I felt pretty crap when I went out.

I just did my calorie count and my net calories is below 500! yeah my intake is over 1000, but hey, that's what binges are, right? Anyway I feel better now that I know I haven't majorly screwed myself over.

9 hours...

I have about 9 hours till I'm back at school, back to normal. No late night binges or all day snacking. I never knew just how much I needed school to be able to stay on track of myself!
Also, I've found a gym I can go to! It'll cost me 15 quid a month and I have a 45 minute bus ride and a 10 minute walk to get there, but it's bloody worth it. I'm going with Daniel tomorrow after I've been to school and he's been to college. I'd probably best sleep now, early start and 2 exams! D:
Stay Strong
Think Thin
Be Beautiful x

Plateau gone, and deepest apologies!

Guys, I'm so sorry its been so long since I last posted, its been like 2 weeks! But yeah, its the easter holidays at the moment, I've been doing very crap.. I've currently gone into week 4 of my period. Its not pleasant and the doctors think its because of an STD, even though I'm clean. Erm, WHAT? Just fix me!!!
I've been stuffing my face with chocolate lately... however the good part of this is that i'm finally off my plateau! I'm down to 59.5 kilos, or 131.2 lb, and I'm quite pleased at that progress to be honest!

This is me now. Still not as good as I'd like, but I'm getting there!!

Also, Nikkii has updated her blog with smashing tips! Check it out pretty please? She's amazing <3