How to hide it.

I've recently had to use a lot of these.

FROM PARENTS AND FAMILY
1. Eat in your room wherever possible.
Make an excuse like you have homework, you need to research something, or you want to watch something on your TV while you eat. Take the food upstairs and every ten minutes tip a quarter of it into a bag/bin you keep in your room. take the plate down when it's empty, with a little bit left on it (so they think you're full).

2. When family aren't around, prepare food, leave the dishes near the sink and dispose of the food in a way that it won't be found. As before, leave a bit of food on the plate, so that it seems you have a small appetite.

3. At weekends and during the holidays, spend as much time away from home as possible. Tell friends you ate at home, and parents you ate with friends.

FROM FRIENDS:
1. When out with friends, mention that you ate at home before meeting them, but only if the subject of lunch/dinner comes up. Don't be the first to bring it up. Say you ate something you wouldn't actually touch, like take-away, cake, crisps etc.

2. Say you ate a really big breakfast, like a full english, or a sunday fry up, and you're full

3. Keep antacids around to keep the growling from your empty stomach from becoming noticable. You can tell friends that you have heartburn from a spicy meal.

4. Chew gum! Then if you're offered food you can decline, food tends to taste really bad when you have a minty taste in your mouth.

AT SCHOOL/COLLEGE/WORK
1. Spend next to no time in the canteen area wherever possible. Go to the library or the nearest clothes shop and distract yourself.

2. Drink coffee! You can tell people you're not hungry from breakfast but drinking a hot drink will give them affirmation that you're looking after yourself, and it will give you energy.

3. Socialise. Keep yourself busy all through your lunch break so you don't have a chance to break your resolve.

AT THE DOCTORS:
1. Drink plenty of water before you go. This will help flush the ketones out of your bloodstream, give you a bit more weight from the tanking, and prevent your stomach from rumbling.

2. Dress warmly, your temperature will be higher.

3. Do something stressful immediately beforehand to raise your blood pressure.

4. If you're having a blood test, eat something small but nutritious (like fruit or yoghurt) within a few hours of your appointment - your mineral levels will be closer to a normal rate, since you should have been fasting for the whole morning before the bloodwork is taken.

I hope these help, I know they help me all the time.

Update after a long absence

So I've been away for a few weeks I think, and I'm sorry it's took me so long to get you all up to speed.. I've recently done an accidental 5 day liquid fast, because me and Dan had a big barmy and we split for a few days. We're back together now which is why I have the emotional strength to get to a keyboard! I'm secretly happy though, I lost 8lb in 5 days, so I'm going to start doing this every week! Not the split, but the fasting. I didn't even feel hungry to be honest, just lost...

My hair started falling out because I wasn't eating anything, I had exams, I wasn't sleeping and I wasn't taking my supplements, so I've had a weave put in to hide it.

Size ten skirt is now at least 2 sizes too big, it just hangs off. The photo isn't good enough quality to tell but my ribs and spine are more visable, and my ribcages protrude much more above my stomach than they did last week.

This was taken 2 days ago, during my accidental fast (The smile is fake I was BROKEN without the stupid dope I call my boyfriend) and my legs looking so much smaller than they have done actually cheered me up a little

mostly milk diet haha

Today I've eaten a meat and potatoe pie from greggs, quite a bit of chocolate, and practically my weight in 99% fat-free milk. I feel brill. I had a bout of food-poisoning over the past few days, I'm never trusting the school salads again... I filled in on my data collection that I have a gluten sensitivity so they won't let me eat bread or pasta in school now. Thank god!

Photo update time!

I appologise for the minor bloating - its that time of the month, and I've eaten a lot of chocolate :(

I love this food. I got a pack of cinnimon cornmeal, 420 calories in a 120g pack, it says cook the whole pack with 2 cups of water, but if you cook 1/4 of the pack with 1/4 cup of water, it becomes really thick and yummy, for 105 calories, and its so filling you won't even finish it all! I made the whole pack because I felt like binging on something that was relatively low cal for how much there is, and I only ate about 5 teaspoons and I was full! Seriously, try it. If you use MFP you can log it as half a serving (1 pack = 2 servings), its always best to count the calories that were in the whole meal even if you didn't finish it :)

Photoshop thinspiration!

Right, we all love to feel thinspired, but looking at other women can get a bit old, we feel jealous and upset, all that drama. an easier way is to photoshop a picture of yourself until it looks realistically skinny and you can look at it and say 'that will be me one day soon.' It works best next to the original photo. Here's mine:

Its easy to tell which one I'd rather be!!