Okay so this is for people who may see my blog and want to complain.
Yes, I know your immediate thoughts will be "She wants people to become anorexic!" Well, I don't. Anorexia is a harmful mental disorder, as is Bulimia, and Eating Disorders Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS)
This site should be a place for the Eating Disordered to come together at each stage. My posts were, at first, tips, I will admit. I have, in the past 3 months, changed my view. Now, they are simply about my own journey, and yes I can understand that may be triggering. However, I have a section on this blog under its own page dedicated wholeheartedly towards recovery. Yes it is still rather empty but that is because I need to find ACCEPTABLE links to post. I don't post them on a blog post because they are not part of my story.
I do NOT promote eating disorders. I use the term 'Pro-Ana' to describe myself as pro-active in the Ana community. Meaning I want to help everyone at every stage.
I know what you're thinking now. If I'm willing to help others recover why not recover myself? Because I'm not ready. I've learned from my past experiences that trying to recover when you're not ready will only make you fall back to where you started eventually, and more than likely even worse than before. When I feel I am strong enough, I will attempt recovery again. Until then, I just want to help people.
I understand that my website may be triggering, but why come to a website like this if you aren't looking to be triggered? I do not advertise this site on any other pages outside the Ana Community, and even then, I'd only advertise the recovery section.
Nobody would be able to find this by googling my name, and the only photo of my face has been mildly edited, make-up worn and wearing extensions so nobody I know will recognise me. The only ones who will find this are the ones who go looking for it. That is the way it will remain.
Anyone who comes to me asking for help to develop an eating disorder will be turned away. Choosing this 'lifestyle' is stupid, if you'll accept my crudeness. Anyone asking for help towards recovery will receive one-to-one support via email or any other form of contact they prefer.
I love each and every girl (or guy if that ever arises) who comes to me for advice when they really need it. There is no weakness in needing help.
Thank you for reading this.
Hi, I just discovered your blog, love it, be strong; lots of love from France :)
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ReplyDeleteI´m from germany and I look for international ana-contacts... so that´s how I found your website... love it*_*
I would be very glad to hear from you!
greetings from germany <3
Keep going! You will get through everything!!! LUV ya girly!!!(even though I don't know u...) we r ANA sisters.....
ReplyDeletei love your blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Every stalk-y and judgmental person should just stay away!
ReplyDeleteI love your blog it's amazing! Hope you come back soon x
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ReplyDeleteOkay. I just want to apologize. I didn't read this before posting comments- and I got the wrong idea. I thought this site was to promote Ed, but maybe not. I have EDNOS and it took me over a year to realize I was even sick. In ten minutes I can go from "recovery is possible" to "I will be thin". It's hard- it's literally a rollercoaster (I hate roller coasters by the way) I've been in therapy for years - I was physically abused for years and molested and always felt alone. I would not eat for days or throw up after every meal, or both. I'm actually currently in s group gone type setting, and my therapist/family would kill me if they knew I wad on sited like this- but im trying- I swear. Well. Sometimes anyway. I just need support. I've been admitted to the hospital and stuff, but yet insurance won't cover treatment. And I have nos, so I can't be that sick right? But I've been throwing up for years- sometimes it hurts just to swallow. I've gone nine days w/o eating; when I do eat, which Ive been doing better with ( I was on a strict meal plan for almost a year and a half- I got used to eating again- and don't want to go back to being tubed) see look I'm still making excused for eating. My sister is next to me- she doesn't understand everything, but she thinks I'm doing well ( I have a history of cutting and suicide attempts) u heard her say she couldn't eat something with sugar recently- what did I do? I don't want to mess her up. I'm only 17, soon to be 18 this July. People say I should go to college but 1 in like 3 or 5 college students have an eating disorder. Sorry. I'm rambling.
ReplyDeleteThis may be the pro ana, but I am the anti ana. I want to give people a safe place to turn to for healthy alternatives. I am not being judgmental. I used to be the most active girl on pro-ana sites. Until I damn near died. Take a look at what the other side can be. Please, visit my blog or message me. zoloftandcoffee@gmail.com
ReplyDeleteme every time i see something that says anorexia is a mental illness: "ignoring this i'm going to skinnyville"
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