I'm sorry its been so long!!!

Well all my friends found out about my problem because my ex 'ana buddy' decided to tell them. So I've spent the last month or so faking getting better and actually just continuing as I am. I eat in front of them and then act like I feel unwell so that they wont try to make me eat any more. I don't bother with numbers anymore though. Numbers make everything seem like school. I go off quantity and ofthings that I know are low cal without knowing numbers. I do the same for my exercise, do it until I feel like i'm done, not till the numbers say I am. I've been doing a lot better too. My dad threw out my scales so I'm going off what I can see, but I can see a pretty big change.

I'm quite proud of the change but I want it better. I will make it better.